Tuesday, 18 October 2011

My Truth......


I believe that God is Love. I believe that Jesus is Love.  I believe that Love is THE WAY to Love. Love by any other name is still Love. I believe that Love lives in me and thru me. This is the truth that I have found. It really is that simple.
The road to this truth has not been an easy one for me. For many years I listened to religion, tradition and the teachings of others. But there was always a small, still voice calling to me from within. When I finally started listening to that voice is when the Truth of Love was revealed to me. I am that Love. We are that Love. 
I am to shine the Light of the Love that I am on ALL people, no matter what their beliefs or backgrounds; no matter what truths they themselves have found. Love does not discriminate for any reason. When a light shines, it is not selective about where is shines. It does not say, “This place is too dark, I can’t shine here.” Nor does it say “My light is different than that light, I’ll not go there.” Light does not say these things…it just shines. And Love…it just Loves.
We all have the free will to choose what we believe and to find our own way. The way that I have found is Love. I will not put Love in a box and close the lid and call it done. Love is a living thing. I can not stifle it or put limits on its reach. I must allow it to breathe and grow and be what it is…Love is all there is.
This is my truth. This is who I am.

Welcome And Farewell........


My heart beat fast, a horse! away!
Quicker than thought I am astride,
Earth now lulled by end of day,
Night hovering on the mountainside.
A robe of mist around him flung,
The oak a towering giant stood,
A hundred eyes of jet had sprung
From darkness in the bushy wood.

Atop a hill of cloud the moon
Shed piteous glimmers through the mist,
Softly the wind took flight, and soon
With horrible wings around me hissed.
Night made a thousand ghouls respire,
Of what I felt, a thousanth part---
My mind, what a consuming fire!
What a glow was in my heart!

You I saw, your look replied,
Your sweet felicity, my own,
My heart was with you, at your side,
I breathed for you, for you alone.
A blush was there, as if your face
A rosy hue of Spring had caught,
For me---ye gods!---this tenderness!
I hoped, and I deserved it not.

Yet soon the morning sun was there,
My heart, ah, shrank as leave I took:
How rapturous your kisses were,
What anguish then was in your look!
I left, you stood with downcast eyes,
In tears you saw me riding off:
Yet, to be loved, what happiness!
What happiness, ye gods, to love!

Thursday, 11 August 2011

eyes that see


As I kept my glasss away...I looked around...i could see a blurred world surrounding me...I felt dizzy...keeping those glasses within my reach...i tried to walk about my room...it remained as familiar as it was a minute before...my desk looked all the more colourful...as there were only colours that were visible...things had faded...i touched my penstand...it felt familiar...the colour pens it held bore bright coloured tips...so i could make out... the candle light made it all the more romantic...me my desk and my room...an awesome trio...I fell in love with the colourful room i lived in...my idea of decent room was pretty fake...as deep down my likings were mischievous colours playing around me...sitting amidst them..i felt ME! The very person i was comfortable to be with...

The once silent child...turning out to be the most talkative one...going back to being silent...n starting to discover oneself...was the journey so far...sometime when the things shook to its roots...this new companion walked in...to kelp me see the world clearly...n make own decisions...coz the feeling of standing alone could not have understood by anyone else...we went hand in hand to look around...tho disliked being seen together...he was my first love...and probably the last one...for it was him who showed how diplomatic people can be...the weakness of being with him was actually the strength...which was sought out years later...and now when i look back...i see nothing but a set of crystal clear memories...memories of seeing off the staircase, a group of laughing guys..memories of being abandoned by a group of kids...then some more..n yet some more...memories of being called out loud in public n the feeling of humiliation...memories of feeling deeply hurt, seeing him walking off...memories of seeing him come and go without noticing me...memories of not having anyone to share my feelings with...memories of crying myself to sleep every single night...memories of breaking hearts on other's say...and these memories just refuse to blur...so unfair!

the things at a distance are by default hazy...but when the nearer and dearer ones move apart...you can think of nothing but the longing to put the glasses on and look for them...when in reality they're meant to leave and move on...yet you reach the bottom of gloominess sitting amidst the same cheerful room... sobbing throughout the night...never knowing when you fell asleep...the darkness encircles your vision and cribbing and cursing worsens...its time to get a new pair of glasses...with subtracted vision...minus is a plus to look around...just a couple of years away from 'ME'...my true companion is nowhere to be seen...the layer of dust blurs his own vision...i stand before this stranger who sees clearly without glasses...and wiping my tears gets easier...

everything deserves a journey.

Destiny is like water it has a defined path but many different smaller routes to complete that path.Each route with varying intensities and unquestionable purpose.
Streams flow hoping to reach the endless blues of the ocean. But the stream is more than that; it is home to an infinite number of significant, emotionally involved drops. Each wanting to taste the salt of endless experience, to get within it, and be its carrier and finally leaving it behind, back where it found it, to be engulfed by another hungry drop, to go on the pilgrimage all over again. To new terrains, new drops pushing it from behind, new conversations with the banks, new rocks to smoothen, new fish to see.
Some drops are ambitious, they want to explore differently before they meet their final abode of this journey in a graying cloud. These brave few leave the stream and go lower to explore the world below the surface. As they go lower and start to brown, to fit in this new environment. They see the soil change color, hospitality; some let them pass right through, some let them stay there for a while for a quick assessment of the surrounding, converse with other drops with unlike purposes. Taking a moment to appreciate the importance of the purpose but never compare it to its own. After thanking that welcoming soil community it leaves back it the search of the beyond, the bed rock. The stories the drop heard of the bed rock, the silent pristine stagnation of thought, time and purpose pulled him towards to her. As it enters her sanctum he is humbled. He realizes this is more than just a place to buy time from the stagnation of the flow, to be stuck in an endless mundane journey, devoid of challenge and change; this is a place to find the true meaning of being a water. A place where water has no immediate purpose, but to wait for the right moment and then reappear to perform his task and move to the next level of its path. While he lies in the darkness answering these questions and creating new questions to answer later, he bickers with fellow dreamers about the other off the mountain droplets who fear the tranquility of the bed rock, fear darkness and detest the smell of rejuvenating soil. But he doesn’t mean all that he says. He dispenses and subscribes to these judgmental and highly biased views just to fit in with the other dreamers. His only fear is to be left behind and abandoned, to be that one drop who went too far and was islanded by land.
These thoughts start to get the better of him and he decides it is time to move back to the surface to embrace time once again. To prove to himself that he still has what it takes to be a water. With little help from what he believes to be an invisible rope sent from the above allowing him to rise to the moment of self evaluation. On his way he finds like minded drops going to the beyond to keep the beyond company. As he reaches closer to the darker soil that separates the two worlds, the two surfaces, he hears a voice, a voice of help, in a language he doesn’t speak but a tone he relates to. Being the drop he is, he volunteers to help, he doesn’t know what he has to do, but he knows he can help, even the slightest of help could ease the pain in that tone, he thinks.
As he leaves the soil and enters this tunnel into a bustling system of drops in dressed in different colors he sees queues, elevators, drops going down, drops moving up, drops performing tasks. All drops with smiles, some even with dimples. He gets filled in about this new majestic system the drops work for in all joy. It took him to learn the dialect of the tree. He worked at different colors at different periods of time, excelled at most and grew fond of a few. That one green colored drop his favorite. He always smelled a fresh sweet smell from the place she stationed herself, by the other green drops. For him, that aroma came from her and the other green drops sat next to her to admire the perfect perfume she exudes.
Time flows and he has soaked as much as he can for this journey, it is now time for him to return to the graying cloud and dole out these experiences so that he can return to carry out another journey and gloss a few more colors, colors he has only heard of in the closed confines of the graying clouds.
He bids farewell to the other drops that have will serve, speak and bloom the language of the tree for a while longer before finding their way into a graying cloud. He can’t muster the courage to go and meet that one green drop he has grown fond off. He believes that the universe will unite the two drops in time. And this that thought waits for the rope to reappear.
Waiting for the invisible rope to be his chariot for the one last time in this journey he sees his entire iota existence fly by, the bed rock, the clay, the sand, the hostile rocks that refused to budge the language of the tree and that one special drop.
The graying clouds where waiting for his return, for he has like always come back with some new experiences, a few new findings and a little colorful dirt, a perfect journey according to the council of clouds. As he shares his travels with the clouds and his fellow drops he is in tears as he reaches the mental image of the green drop, he can smell the perfume and with his description so can everyone else. He leaves the crowd and finds a quiet corner and talks to a few drops about their experience and hears of some moving creates, ones that don’t need the Rope to commute. This new piece of information amazes him. He now knows what he is going to look for on his next journey.
At the very moment of being let out of the cloud, he leaves behind sorrow, regret and all other dry emotions of the last journey with the cloud, turning the beautiful grey cloud into a clear white sky. 

Dasvinayia...A good bye :)

I read a note written by my friend on facebook and this word strikked my heart.......Dasvidaniya:a good bye :) A chirio, a bye to a lot of people, a lot of habits that you had and a lot of things that came your way and have now gone for away.....Dasvidaniya said it by you to someone or said by someone to you.....I think its my bye to those who have been a part of my life to a many who have molded me the way I am...They have been with me through all my good and bad times, through all the fun that I had and who hold this place in my heart.......And now the list is this way:

Bharati Ma'am: The coordinator of my my department I need a canvas like sky to paint her. For she is someone who had the trust and faith in me and has been always there in my journey as the placement cell head....She has helped me to find and polish my skills as a head and moreover has taught me and built my image as a responsible, dedicated and a hardworking person...Thank You ma'am to help me write those professional cover letters that I always hated to and moreover to help me improve my business communication skills.My thanks is going to be endless for what you helped me to grow as a person....Thank You...
Sonal Ma'am

Sunday, 7 August 2011

Imraan's Poems from Zindagi Na Milegi Dobbara......


POEM - 1


Pighlay neelam sa behta hua yeh samaan

Neeli neeli si khamoshiyaan

Na kahin hai zameen

Na kahin aasmaan

Sarsaraati huyi tehniyaan, pattiyaan

Keh rahi hain ki bas ek tum ho yahaan

Sirf main hoon meri saansein hain aur meri dhadkanein

Aisi gehraiyaan

Aisi tanhaiyaan

Aur main sirf main

Apne honay pe mujhko yaqeen aa gaya



POEM - 2

Ik baat honton tak hai jo aayi nahin

Bas ankhon say hai jhaankti

Tumse kabhi, mujhse kabhi

Kuch lafz hain woh maangti

Jinko pehanke honton tak aa jaaye woh

Aawaaz ki baahon mein baahein daalke ithlaaye woh

Lekin jo yeh ik baat hai

Ahsaas hi ahsaas hai

Khushboo si hai jaise hawa mein tairti

Khushboo jo be-aawaaz hai

Jiska pata tumko bhi hai

Jiski khabar mujhko bhi hai

Duniya se bhi chupta nahin

Yeh jaane kaisa raaz hai




POEM - 3

Jab jab dard ka baadal chaya

Jab ghum ka saya lehraya

Jab aansoo palkon tak aya

Jab yeh tanha dil ghabraya

Humne dil ko yeh samjhaya

Dil aakhir tu kyun rota hai

Duniya mein yunhi hota hai

Yeh jo gehre sannate hain

Waqt ne sabko hi baante hain

Thoda ghum hai sabka qissa

Thodi dhoop hai sabka hissa

Aankh teri bekaar hi nam hai

Har pal ek naya mausam hai

Kyun tu aise pal khota hai

Dil aakhir tu kyun rota hai






POEM - 4

Dilon mein tum apni betaabiyaan leke chal rahe ho

Toh zinda ho tum

Nazar mein khwaabon ki bijliyaan leke chal rahe ho

Toh zinda ho tum

Hawaa ke jhonkon ke jaise azad rehna seekho

Tum ek dariya ke jaise lehron mein behna seekho

Har ek lamhe se tum milo khole apni baahein

Har ek pal ik naya samaan dekhein yeh nigaahein

Jo apni aankhon mein hairaaniyaan leke chal rahe ho

Toh zinda ho tum

Dilon mein tum apni betaabiyaan leke chal rahe ho

Toh zinda ho tum

Thursday, 4 August 2011

Blue jeans and white shirt!

What are you wearing...Its complete foolish and completely out of the theme...Shattered, I was when I heard it but then I hear that strong voice Who the hell are you to ask me that?????A shirt and jeans is my style statement.....Now that's fabulous answer so I turned back at the voice and see myself saying but not to the person but to myself....Yes that is my style statement.Decency is my style statement.And then I start thinking what's with this world, what has happened to people around????Is wearing provoking clothes,where you are not feeling comfortable and you have thousands of pervertish eyes staring at you.....Is that what we call style statement...Nah I don't agree....

Wednesday, 3 August 2011

A lot can happen over a coffee.....

I know you all would say that this is the tagline of Cafe Coffee Day....And yes it is, I fully agree to it for there's lots that happens at CCD and over a cup of coffee....Well it all starts with the long plans that were decided since my last exam and finally yesterday that's 3rd aug came the golden day for us i.e. Amruta Ma'am: my friend, philosopher and guide:professor and me met up at CCD opp.Sp College.I was as usual late and she as usual very politely waited for me.So when I entered the coffee shop I saw such beautiful elegant women working on her laptop and that's how we started off....With the few handshakes and smiles and gestures exchanged we really hit it well...And of course why wouldn't we for we share alot of common things between us...
As the meet began I came to know her short and sweet love story; By the way she has just got engaged with her  charming man and I was happy to see her happy..And then our discussion ran through all the topics that could run:be it college, be it politics, be it human nature or for that matter my career plans....well this all lasted for 3 hrs and of course with a lot of teasing (mostly I did that because as I said she is very polite) and a coffee and corn sandwich to add flavor to everything.......
Well now what's so special about meet,that's what you might think.But yes it is special for it is about spending time with people you like the most.It is about those people who leave foot prints in your heart. It is about those people who assure you that there's someone who genuinely feels good about you. It is about those people who are always there for you irrespective of the relation you share....It is about a pure friendship that has no age limit,that is above all negative feelings and is only pure in its own way....It is about a relation with a teacher and student and moreover it is about a relation with two distinct personalities yet with mutual feelings in heart and soul!!!!!!!!!
That was one of my best evenings,Ma'am.......Because a lot happened over a cup of coffee :)
Thank You for that and Love You Always :)

Monday, 1 August 2011

my heart rests in peace-1

I wonder why am I writing this for its been a year and half that my love chap has got over and me currently happy with my single status.It all began with the desperation to have a boy friend, a boy friend who would be the friend, the companion and a partner of all good and bad times....A person with ambitions,dreams to achieve,and yet rooted strongly....I agree to myself and also I do not regret that I am 7/10 on looks but still I am someone who is happy with whatever I am and whatever I have...So this search for boyfriend began in the first year of graduation years.I searched in every way possible...My heart used to pound the moment I used to start chatting with guys on internet  and soon I met someone called Harsh,who was a navy student then and now a officer.He used to stay in Mumbai and had his college in Pune so he used to come down every single and go go back on the weekends.
My chapter of Harsh began with chatting over the net..N soon I realized or convinced my heart that this was the right guy for me..So me and Harsh decided to meet. Harsh, on a Thursday, had to come to Pune for his submission and then we decided to go out.as per plan we met near Mac D and then as he decided we rode to Chandani Chowk....But this was the worst part of my so called Love..And rose many questions in my heart as to what type of guy am I looking for in my version of love I wasn't looking for lust and he was....This was an eye opener for me and I decided to break up in the same way I made up....
It was my first relation and with a lot of expectations ofcourse but it left me shattered and my social network status was single again.......But,yes this relationship surely taught me a few good lessons
1. That I wanted relationships on my terms, I know that's hard to happen and relations have no terms
2. I am looking for a friendship in a relationship
3. My heart is still immature to lead me anywhere
4. I was comparing or trying to fit Harsh in my dream boyfriend's image which is nothing but fooling your heart...
I have got over with this gentleman surely but there is always a hope to get something better..So I am still hunting for my dream boy :)